The Quitter

I am a serial quitter. I quit. Then I quit quitting. And repeat. I’ve written posts promising, threatening, suggesting I will quit many times before. The repetitive nature of my posts tells you that I haven’t quit. I am still a foul, filthy stinky smoker. I’ve tried patches, gum, electronic cigarettes. But I’m a resilient soul, not put off the real thing very easily. I’ve gotten into mountain climbing and marathon running to help me quit. But I just ran and climbed with a fag in my mouth.

It’s not that I don’t want to quit, which is the impression I might have given off. I do. Really, I do.  There is the issue with the three of four smokes in the pack that I really enjoy though. Giving up the other 16 or 17 in the pack is easy peasy. But those few tasty, cherished smokes. They’re tougher. They’re old friends, and it’s hard to shut the door on such old friends. I tend to keep them around. But before you know it, though, they’ve invited their friends back into the room. And I’ve puffed my way through a whole pack again.

What to do? Keep trying. I’m going to take up some good advice this time. At least one occasional commenter has sung the praises of Champix. My sister used them and is off the baccy, and has been for a long time. So I took the stroll into my doctor’s surgery today. I got a prescription. And now I have a two week starter pack of Champix. I start tomorrow. It’s a two week pack. It’s easy to start. Real easy. A tablet in the morning, and I can even keep on smoking. Sweet!

I have to pick a stop day, sometime between 8 and 14 days. I pick 10 days. It’s a nice round number. Best of all, it’ll be a Saturday. I can curl up and take any suffering that there might be. Is there much? Champix users, your input is appreciated! How effective were they with the cravings for you? Share your experiences!



17 thoughts on “The Quitter

  1. You are brave. I admire you for facing the dragon, again and again. Sooner or later, by one means or another, you will slay him. I know you will because I did – 30 years ago. And believe me, I am no dragon-slayer. Smoking is such a hard habit to give up. I don’t know your age but as the years pass it becomes even more imperative to make it a thing of the past. Do you like poetry? Frances Anne Kemble wrote this and I often recite it when I am in the midst of a difficult challenge.

    “A sacred burden is this life ye bear:
    Look on it, lift it, bear it solemnly,
    Stand up and walk beneath it steadfastly.
    Fail not for sorrow, falter not for sin,
    But onward, upward, till the goal ye win.”


    • Nicotine isn’t fussy about the company he keeps. Smart, dumb, scruffy, sassy, doctors and dockers. He’s not fussy at all.

      I, on the other hand, need to start being choosy about my friends, and show him the door. It’s gone half past p*** off.


  2. Scary drug, I hope you do some research before taking it.
    It turned my friend into a zombie type person and made her memory mush.
    She did quit smoking for awhile; but is back at it now.
    Be very careful and good luck.


    • I’ve done a ton of research. I’ve been thinking about going this route for years. But I’ve put it off till now because there are, as you rightly allude, plenty of horror stories. This is an option of last resort.

      How do I feel after Day 1? A little confused. Very mildly irritable. Just 1 x 0.5mg tab today, not the 2 x 1mg tabs that’s I’ll be chomping on next week.

      But for all the horror stories, there are multitudes of success stories. I’m hoping to be one of them.


  3. What a great post, truly enjoyable to read. And wow, i respect you. I am utterly useless when it comes to trying to quit (as i type, i have a rollie hanging unlit out of the corner of my mouth – classy i know)- so all the very best of luck with it! 🙂


  4. Shelagh says:

    Kirk Douglas had a cigarette in his breast pocket which he would pull out and say “Who is in charge here you or me” that seemed to work for him.
    I quit over 20 years ago and it is the best thing I ever did. Good luck.


  5. I sure wish you luck–in both ways: quitting AND avoiding the occasional, but severe, side effects of the medicine you cited. I am a smoker as well, and resumed smoking after quitting for 3 years. (No, I wasn’t using this med.) Addictions come in many forms, be it over-eating, drugs, or smoking.

    But buen suerte. Your blog is very interesting and honest.

    I only know one person who’s tried this product, and it was not successful for her.


    • I’m generally fairly level headed and easy going. Hopefully the worst of the side effects will just see me being a little irritable. If they become too much, then I’ll just have to find another route to a nicotine free life.

      Success can’t be guaranteed for everyone. One can but keep trying!


  6. Kim G says:

    Buena Suerte, Gary!!! Best to quit now before you get back to Mx, as cigarettes there cost probably only about 1/3 or less what they charge in your emerald isles. I only smoke very occasionally (maybe a couple cigarettes a week), and I’ve found I can get Dunhills in DF for only about 45 pesos a pack. However, in Mx they put pictures of dead babies, diseased lungs, etc on the packs which is distinctly unappealing, though in the end, easily overlooked.

    I’m rooting for you!


    Kim G
    Boston, MA
    Where if you don’t smoke in the house, it’s too cold to smoke anyway.


    • It’s going well so far. Although it has to be said, that I’m not required to actually stop lighting up at this stage….!

      Too cold to smoke? It’s never too cold to smoke, if you put your mind to it!


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